As a kid, whenever we would drive through a tunnel, my sister and I would hold our breaths until we were out of it (don't know where that superstition came from or what it means but that's irrelevant). Anyways, 2018 felt just like that: driving through a very, very, very long tunnel with no end in sight. It felt like I was holding my breath waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel that never came.
2018 was probably the hardest year of my life since maybe junior year of high school when I was first diagnosed with clinical depression. I was the saddest I've been, maybe ever, and truly didn't know if/how I was going to be able to pull myself out of this "slump".
I cried a lot. I spent more time sleeping to avoid reality than I care to admit. I did some things that I regret. I complained about nearly everything. I threw myself a lot of pity parties. I said some things I shouldn't have. And, ultimately, I started becoming a person I really didn't like.
There are a few things that influenced this slump besides the ever-present chemical imbalance in my brain but I don't want to point fingers and it's beside the point.
While this year put me through hell, it's not to say that it was ALL bad. I traveled to some cool places, I jumped out of a few planes, I made some new friends and got closer to old ones, I sang my heart out at some amazing concerts, I hung out with Mickey Mouse a few times, I saw my sister graduate college, I started "modelling" (LOL) - the list goes on.
All this to say, 2018 was definitely NOT my favorite year but it did make me stronger.
2018 reminded me that every day may not be good but there is something good in every day - sometimes you just have to look a little harder for it than others.
2018 taught me how to communicate and stand up for myself.
2018 reminded me that mental health is so so SO important and it's up to you to do what you need to do to take care of yourself.
2018 taught me that people do care, you just have to let them.
So here's to you, 2018! I won't miss you but I can say thank you. Thank you for testing me and teaching me.
Now, thank u, next ;)
Sincerely yours,
Just Another Original
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