The Reality of Postgrad Life

Well friends, it has officially been four months since I graduated - aka 1/3 of a year - and I have done nothing...

I have not found a job yet. I moved back home and am living with my parents. I have not found my soul mate. The list goes on.

When I think of life in those terms, it's hard not to get depressed. It's hard not to see the glass as half-empty and think that nothing is ever going to fall into place (or maybe that's just my self-deprecating mind). It is so easy for me to compare myself to others (especially on social media) and think that I'm the only one who doesn't have this whole post-grad life figured out yet and somehow I'm less of a person because of it. I am constantly talking myself down into a spiral of negativity and it's really not helping anyone.

However, the other day when I was laying around wallowing in self-pity, I saw this picture and the quote really resonated with me.

"You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward" - what a concept!

I always seem to think that once I have a job or once I get a boyfriend or once I lose a certain amount of weight or once I *insert aspiration here*, then life will start - a sentiment that is completely false.

Life doesn't run on contingencies - it's happening all the time.

This whole transition period has really forced me to breathe and take life one day at a time. After all, the future comes one day at a time. While I may not currently be living the life I have envisioned for myself, that doesn't mean that I never will. However, the only thing I can do at the moment is make a conscious effort everyday to eventually get to that place.

Everyday I make the conscious effort to get myself out of bed at a reasonable hour. Everyday I make the conscious effort to submit my resume to companies that I would like to work for. Everyday I make the conscious effort to exercise and eat better so that I can eventually feel better about the way I look.

Even though I would love for everything to fall into place tomorrow, I know they won't and that's okay. Timing is different for everyone and while it might not be my time just yet, I know it will come eventually. With that being said, I just need to remind myself to breathe and let things happen as they will.

I'm not usually a fan of God's timing (I can get pretty impatient), but somehow life has continued despite things not happening the way that I want them to. And - if we're being honest - even though I haven't appreciated the timing, I am still pretty pleased with the way that my life has turned out thus far. So, even though I can get impatient in the process, I have faith that everyday things are coming together bit by bit and are eventually going to lead to something great.

Here's hoping my time comes soon though because I'm getting tired of waiting...

Sincerely yours,
Just Another Original